“I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!”

 Romans 7:15-25                        (ESV)

“[15] For “I DO NOT UNDERSTAND” my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. [16] Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. [17] So now it is no longer I who do it, but SIN THAT DWELLS IN ME. [18] For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. [19] For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. [20] Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. [21] So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. [22] For I delight in the law of GOD, in my inner being, [23] but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and MAKING ME CAPTIVE to the law of sin that dwells in my members. [24] Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? [25] Thanks be to GOD through JESUS CHRIST our LORD! So then, I myself serve the law of GOD with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.”

Being in CONTROL is something that I have never been able to master to my own benefit.  I would be too strict with myself, then I would be too lax further down the road.  It doesn’t make sense that I would be so on FIRE for THE LORD and then display such Spiritual Immaturity in the same day.  

There are times when I have to be reminded that this body is a temple of the HOLY SPIRIT (1 Corinthians 6:19-20) and I shouldn’t have CONTROL over what going on with my body.  If ANYONE should understand this, it should be me?  Sixteen years ago I “believed” myself to be in CONTROL of my life.  Within a little more than a month I was in a coma and medical team was unable to CONTROL my blood pressure.  My personal physician wrote in my medical records in September 2007 “However, he has had a remarkable recovery that could only be defined as a miracle from GOD!”  

To say that “I DO NOT UNDERSTAND” might just mean that GOD is in our midst doing what ONLY HE is able to do!  There is NO DOUBT in my mind that GOD is capable of doing as HE pleases, so why am I amazed when that occurs?  ALMIGHTY GOD loves me, a broken vessel incapable of reciprocating HIS affection, and “I DO NOT UNDERSTAND” that!  HIS LOVE is a boundless love, and I am SO GLAD it is!!!